greatness.

What does it take to be great?

One might say that greatness can be taught.. while I believe this is true, I don't believe that an unwilling individual can merely be taught to attain eminence. Greatness requires passion and fervent pursuit. I have passion and I'm ready to pursue the dreams that God has sown so delicately in my heart.. I will chase desire as long as I'm breathing.

You may ask, "What are you passionate about?"

I am passionate about the smiles on children's faces.. ones that withstand hardship, pain and suffering and endure through the trials that the world has laid heavy upon them. I am passionate about seeing individuals' faces light up for the first time when they feel God's unending love. I am passionate about working hard for change in a broken world because I know my God is so much bigger than the destruction. I am passionate about worshipping Jesus, in spirit AND in truth and I will sing until I can't find the words to describe His beauty and will press on even still. I am passionate about capturing truth, beauty, pain and every other emotion on film and exposing it raw and unrefined in its natural splendor. My passion runs deep and wide and will not be suppressed.

So what are you passionate about? Pursue it til the end because Christ's passion took Him to the cross.

a song in my soul.

My life is a song lately. Every lyric I hear fuels my heart and each step that I take. I just want to melt away into the rhythmic beauty and dance the day away. I wish that the world could mold to the song that's in my soul and live in harmony amidst the sweet highs and lows of the treble and bass. I could sit for hours strumming the same chord pattern, letting my heart wander where it likes because that's where I feel God the most. My life is a song and His have beautifully composed the days into a work of genius that is an outward expression of His awe-inspiring love. As long as He is the songwriter, I'll dance the day away.

Here it goes..

I am tired of living a life of mediocrity. Always saying, "I'll start that tomorrow.." or "maybe someday.." It's time for today.. for a change that will last, something sustainable. So here I will document my journey, my struggles, and my triumphs through Christ.

The Breakdown--

1. Gluttonous & Out of Shape-- This is an area I have struggled with for years. To begin with, I am lactose intolerant, sensitive to sugar, and turn to food for just about everything. God has really highlighted gluttony as a major shortcoming in my relationship with Him and I'm sick of it. I am 20 years old and feel like I'm 40..

2. Lame Relationship with Jesus-- Since returning from YWAM, my spiritual life has fallen apart. It seems I needed the environment of YWAM to seek Jesus but that's wrong. It's time for me to take hold of my own desire for Him and put it into practice. No more excuses or saying I don't have time or don't know how. Of course I do, and God is seeking me! All I have to do is turn around and face Him.

3. Dying Desires-- I have stopped dancing, writing, singing, playing guitar, baking and just about everything else I used to love to do. My desire for life giving activities is dying and I want to see the passion revived.

So.. What's Next?

It's time for some goals, ones you can help me be accountable to. I've tried to do this all on my own and I fail.. epically. I'm open for comments, suggestions, criticism.. anything you can throw at me. Isn't that the point of a blog?

Goals--

1. Healthy Lifestyle--

<> No more dairy..

<> Run 3x a week

<> Begin to cut out refined sugar

2. Passionate Prayer Life--

<> Seek Jesus in the am.. 6:30 M-F, 8:30 Weekends

<> Keep a prayer journal daily

<> Switch the way I seek Him regularly

3. Refueled Aspirations--

<> Blog more-- that's where the writing comes in

<> Write one song a month

<> Bake something to give away once a week

I understand that that's a lot of goals.. and it'll take a while to nail them down and give it my all. But I'm ready. I'm ready to live a more fulfilling life because that is what Jesus has called me to.. here it goes..